Yea choas it all started out by her saying she missed me n regretted losing me. Said she didnt think we'd be able to get back what we had but we could like try by re-living how we met n stuff, sneaking about. We hang out in the same pub, I play for the pool team, her dads the captain. And we first started seeing each other when no one was looking! It was fun and exciting!
Shes can be a bit harsh though, when we split it was a case of "leave me alone" etc. So now when shes actually saying stuff like "dont u agree it might not work" that means shes thinking about it. I mean it was her idea to try again until I ruined things on the firday we were meant to meet.
It seems to me that she sees me as a risk. A risk to her happiness and her acting and stuff. And she was only prepared to take that risk until I ruined it all on that friday!
I duno whats in her head. Aint spoken to her since monday.
Shes off on holiday for xmas in a couple of days :( Off with her family up to their cottage.
I know shes thinking of me right now. I just have faith in what me and her used to have. She admits it was amazing and regrets losing it. She would have it all back but she, like me, knows it would be hard to rebuild a strong bond that broken months ago.
If only she knew she could be with me and do her acting. Thats what shes worried about. Me not understanding everytime she cant see me because shes busy. I would understand.
It all hinged on that Friday we were meant to meet. She was gona explain all about how busy she was.. and Id have to accept it... but then i did the worst thing I could do.. moan and get mad when she cancelled on me.
I just feel like me and her afforded each other cool lifestyles. I took her out for dinner (dont laugh), to the cinema, to gigs. She took me out to her cool partys and drama shows. We were such a neat couple. When I went to play in pool competitions she'd carry my cue :) I felt like Tom cruise in the Colour of Money :p
I miss totally miss her...