Most Tragic News Ever

My little Fox passed away this morning. SIDS I suppose, at least that thats the doctors are saying. I'm absolutely devasted. I can barely think of the words to type, so forgive me but I'm just gonna empty my mind. Life......death...the corralation between the two. How can something so innocent just be ripped from this world? I don't understand it and I probably never will. All I've been hearing all morning is about God and his will. I don't believe in God and I never will. This just reinforces that belief. So if it wasn't God who took him then why? Why my little boy? That is a question I will live with all of my life. Right now I'm going through all the regrets and hindsight. I shoulda did this I coulda did that. Even though I know there was pretty much nothing I could do I can't help but blame myself. I feel like such a failure as a father and a human being. What now? The next few months and years are gonna be the toughest of my life. If I can get through them I'll be alright. Don't ever take life for granted. It's not garaunteed that you'll be here when the sun comes up tomorrow. You may never see it coming. I hope sometime I will gain some kind of knowledge and experience from this but I don't see how that is possible. I guess what I have learned is life can change in an instant. One flick of the switch. I can't really say how this will affect me in the end. Right now I can't feel or I don't want too. I don't wanna accept it but I'm gonna have too. I got a huge amount of soul searching to do. I thought about performing "Tears in Heaven" at his services but I know I wouldn't make it through the first few words. I don't know what to do.

That's really sad news dude.
I honestly don't know what to say.

I'm really really sorry to hear about your loss. I wish I could say I know how you feel, but I don't. You shouldn't be hard on yourself, I don't have one doubt in my mind that his weeks of life were full of happiness that you were able to provide. Once again, I'm sorry to hear about Fox and hope you get through this with ease.

I hope you and anyone never has to know how I feel. I'm so afraid of the future. I don't want it to affect me in such a negative way that I distance myself from evryone and everything I love. My wife and my son especially. My wife is.....I can't even discribe it. I don't think there is words to explain our emotional state.

I am deeply sorry for your loss... I too don't know what to say.

I am so sorry for your loss.

Marcos, I'm so sorry to hear about this great loss you and your family are having to go through! I know how hard it is to loose a parent, but I couldn't imagine it being the other way around. All I can say is stay strong for your family. You all need to be there for each other through this. I know it will be hard, but just know tht you were, and still are a great father and husband! Whether you believe in God or not, you and your family are in my prayers! Be strong my friend, and feel free to contact me if you ever need someone to talk to. I'm here for you brother.

Thanks everyone. I really needed your support. Without all of you and my family here I would just cave in.

Marcos... I think that anything I could say right now would just be pathetic... but never forget that you don't have to be on your own in this. Be with your family, be with your friends, be with a counsellor, be with anybody - there are so many people who will feel your pain and be there for you if you reach out to them. And we're here, as well.

Hold on, my friend. It's so cruel that Fox died when you only had such a short time together, but the fact that you loved him, and that he loved you, will live on with you for the rest of your life. I will pray for you and for your family.

Be strong.

Magic my friend I honestly have no words to describe how sad I am for you and your family :( All i can say is that I and all of your friends here at GT are here for you.. this is such a sad moment.. I hope that u and your family with the help of God can get through this sad sad time.. and im here for you too bud.

It's so horribly cliche but I never thought something like this would happen to us. You hear about things like this all the time but you just say "Ahh poor saps I'm glad that'll never happen to me." I can't say that anymore. I hate that my son just became a statistic. His life will mean something far greater than I realize right now but someday I'll know exactly why my little Fox came and went so quick. It seems like only yesterday I was all excited to post his picture in here for you guys and now he's gone. The pain runs deep.

I am so sorry for your loss Marcos.

I'm glad I have a place like this to turn to for support. This is one of the reasons I devote a chunk of my time to this site. Thank you all. I don't know what I'd be doing right now if I didn't have this forum to turn to.

Deepest sympathy Marcos to you and your family

Kind regards
Craig

Thats unbelievable. I'm so sorry.

Aw, Marcos... I just don't know what to say. I have watched my parents bury one of their sons, so I have some small understanding of your pain. A parent should never have to deal with the death of a child. I'm so sorry.

****, man. thats horrible. There really isnt anything anyone can say that will make it better or right, but hang in there, Marcos. You are a great guy and a great father. Its obvious to all of us, and we havn't even met you in person.

Ponyone said this and its so true.

Originally Posted by: PonyOnehe isn't a statistic, he's Fox Jiron, he's your son; you'll always have that, no matter what.

We love you man. Take care of yourself and your family. This isn't something anyone should have to go through, ever.

Marcos. My God, I wish I were a smarter, more eloquent man. Maybe then I could find the right words to say. I can only imagine the emptiness you feel inside right now; it's a void nothing can ever fill. Fox was your son, and he was a beautiful child. You loved him like any good father would, and a parent's love is the greatest thing anyone can ever have or give. Don't forget your other child in this unhappy time. He, now more than ever, will need that wonderful gift that only you can give. Try your best to be strong for your wife and son, though I know it will be hard.

Most importantly, please remember that you are not a failure. You loved your son, and, to you, your children are the most important thing in the world. That attitude is the mark of a great father and a good man. I don't need to say "don't ever forget your son, Fox," because a father like you will always keep the memory of his loved ones.

You love Fox. Your family loves Fox. We love Fox. And Fox loves you. I think dead or alive, thats all that really matters.

wow. I really don't know what to say that hasn't already been said. But I am deeply sorry for your loss. But you cannot blame this on yourself! it's not your fault, and it was very obvious to us that you are a great father. Stay strong for your family, and remember we're here for you.