You know, I woke up the other morning just like any other day, at 6am on the dot, and I wasn't in the best of moods. I was really ticked off at something that transpired this past week, and the coffee I made was really thick. Just like anyone, I had my reasons for feeling down, and frustrated, and just really tired of trying to find common ground. And then a simple thing like the newspaper being delivered right to my front door, no not in the bushes, not in the tree, but right in front of my door, that put a smile on my face. As I'm flipping through the pages, I took a sip of my (thick coffee) and everything just didn't taste so bad after that.
I found a way to re-charge my batteries, just from that one simplistic moment of not having to climb my palm tree to read that darn paper.
I don't have the ability to hate, or to hold a grudge at someone else for making my day, or my year a little less than pleasant for that matter, and for those who allow feelings of hatred to eat up at their soul, it makes them wonder what they are living for after all.
This act of terrorism that this world has experienced was nothing more tha a confident suicide mission, led by people who no longer valued their lives compared to a mission of destruction.
It's sad to see that in this world, retribution is #1 for a lot of people, that's their way in finding peace with themselves. I've said it once before and I'll say it again, this world is just fine, but it's certain people that make it bad for others.
Watching the people in foreign countries celebrate because of the destruction that we have faced this morning, it really does scare you, it scares you that there are actually people in this world (normal hard working citizens) who truly allow hatred to rule their lives and take over theor better judgement. Despite the beef that people have with the authority of this country, that should not hold any ground with the welfare of the common citizens of this world, people that are no different than any other.
We don't know any of these somewhat 40,000 people who are presumably dead, but still it's very easy to put ourselves in their position, or in the position of their loved ones. The worst feeling that one can imagine is having someone you love taken away from you without any reasons, and without anything that you can do about it.
Terrorism exists in this world, and people do have evil in intentions. That's something that we have forgotten for quite sometime, due to scandal, and whatever distractions the media has been focusing on over the past several years.
But it doesn't make sence to cast the next stone, there's no point in pointing the finger where it doesn't belong. It's best to try and preserve whatever is left of courgage, trust and faith when it comes to the people in this country. However, that doesn't mean that we shouldn't be over cautious in all situations.
I'm tired of trying to make sence of this situation, because I can't, and I can no longer argue with how the authorites should have seen this coming, because they couldn't possibly have. Sooner or later, in perfect world, something like this is bound to slip beneath the cracks. And as a strong country, we have to pull together and pick up the pieces to make sure that we're prepared so nothing like this will happen again.
Although it's hard to admit, something like this makes us stronger as a nation, it keeps us aware that evil that lurks behind every corner, and that we have to be careful at all costs.
I can't tell people how to think, and millions of hours in therapy doesn't always cure a lost soul. There are some people in this world who will never change, some people who live and die by revenge, and casting the final stone even if it costs them their lives.
And we will never escape such terrorism, because evil intentions will forever exist in this world. But we have to learn to protect ourselves much more securely, and with more confidence. We have to learn not to second guess ourselves, no matter how it makes ius look, because we just might be saving our lives in the end.
At a moment like this, it's important to be thankful for what you still have, be thankful for your family snd friends, and that you're able to enjoy another thanksgiving dinner with them, because life is so precious, and it vcan be taken away within the blink of an eye.
I've spoken to all different types of people, including my previous girlfriend who cuurently lives in Massachusettes, (who frequently travels to New York to visit her friends. As I spoke with her, I didn't care about what we've been through in the past, or how things ended, I just wanted to hear her voice, and to know that she was okay. Just like everyone else, she was shaken up, but with all of the crap we've been through, all of the fights, she was just glad to hear from me.
Things like this, they gives you a heightened perspective on life and all of the people that surround you, it shows you that the arguments that you couln;t resolve one weekemnd don't really mean a thing. All that matters us that you keep in touch with those ou love and truly care about in this world, and that you never hesitate to say what's truly in your heart.
This is how I feel, and the only thing that makes sense to me after all of this endless tragedy is that love is the most precious feeling that one could imagine. Before even after we're long and gone, it never really leaves our soul. We can do a good job in hiding it, or convincing others that it's gone, but it never truly leaves us.
My prayers go out to families of all of the victims of this horrible crash, I haven't cried in years, but this is the one thing that has broken me down. And I guess sometimes, you're afraid that once you start, you just wont be able to stop. It'ds very true, but I'm only human, and when words can't express how you feel, sometimes you just hwve no choice.
Say a prayer guys, and hold onto those you truly love.Sorry if this was enormously long, but there isn't much more to talk about at this point. After waching this nonstop for the past two days, it really rips you in half.
-Joseph
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