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02/08/2006 4:28 pm
hey guys...i have this huge thing for this girl whom i've know for ages.... never really affected me but during this trip, i realised that she's all i'm after...it's sad and depressing... have thought abt confessing but seriously...i'm pretty much convinced that she wud not feel the same...just agut feeling though...im leaving soon back to melbourne and it'll kill me...geez...this is kinda cheesy but heck... i reckon my case is less... 'decorated' than a typical love story... she stayed over for a couple of days and it was great... :(... help... hugging her while sleeping was awesome... she has a boyfriend whom she isn't really happy with... sigh...she's the type where it takes more than just cuddling each other to bed as a sign of attraction...sigh i really don't know wat to do... i wrote a poem abt her...tell me what u guys think...



what was that for?
why did you convulate things more?
why are you so fascinating?
what was it for?

self denial
it is impossible
it is simply trivial
but i'd show you why i'm capable

things are different now
time came knocking on the door
what was that for?
the barrier makes me need more

show me something
you're simply amazing
but i need more...
what was it for...

take me somewhere nice...
take me somewhere right
rose petals bloom
i do not dare to assume

for you are remarkable...
what are you thinking?
how are you feeling?
HE? is debatable..

incompetent..
insignificant...
are you just pious?
no...you're just oblivious...

it's not love...
it's not lust...
it's reality...
this is different..

what is this for?
soon i'd be gone
soon i'd be alone
so please give me more...

what would you do?
soon you'd be gone...
i might be wrong
i'd better sing this song..

what was that for?
please don't convulate things more
please be ridiculous
all hopes uncalled for...
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02/08/2006 4:33 pm
I really don't know what to tell you, buddy. That's a real tough spot you're in, all I can say is good luck. As the poem says, this is reality. Who knows what could happen?
You go outside and practice screaming. We'll play music while you're gone.
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02/08/2006 4:54 pm
Originally Posted by: jeffhxhey guys...i have this huge thing for this girl whom i've know for ages.... never really affected me but during this trip, i realised that she's all i'm after...it's sad and depressing... have thought abt confessing but seriously...i'm pretty much convinced that she wud not feel the same...just agut feeling though...im leaving soon back to melbourne and it'll kill me...geez...this is kinda cheesy but heck... i reckon my case is less... 'decorated' than a typical love story... she stayed over for a couple of days and it was great... :(... help... hugging her while sleeping was awesome... she has a boyfriend whom she isn't really happy with... sigh...she's the type where it takes more than just cuddling each other to bed as a sign of attraction...sigh i really don't know wat to do... i wrote a poem abt her...tell me what u guys think...

All I can say is what's the worst that can happen? She says no thanks? I understand the degree of humiliation involved in exposing yourself like that, but the humiliation is all in your head. As far as opinions go, anything outside of your own shouldn't hinder your own goals and progress. If she shares the same opinion, then great. Anyway, the point I'm getting at is the prime goal is to express yourself. And it's not gonna be expressed to the satisfactory degree until you confront her. Now, I'm not gonna go and give you tips on how to approach her, or tell you what to do, or this, or that, or whatever. Recite the poem if you like, or greet her with a head butt to the jaw and a punch to the gut, I don't care. Just so long as it happens is all that really matters. If nothing comes from it then years from now you'll probably be lucky enough to remember it, but if something does happen, then the doors of opportunity will be flung wide open. If you want it bad enough, then something's gonna have to give.

Here, think of it like this. You're 17 years old and you're trying to buy some cigarettes. You walk into the local gas station and look at the grizzly, over-weight, middle-aged man with a bald spot, a mario brothers style moustache, and pit stains. He asks what he can get you in his natural, destroyed from smoking for 30+ years voice and you say, "a pack of smokes," trying to sound natural, and of age. At this point one of two things can happen. Either he'll card you or he'll give you your cigarettes. If he gives them to you then you can smoke yourself to cancerville faster than I get off after going a week without touching myself. If he asks for your card then, being the minor that you are, you say something dumb like, "I forgot it," and just leave, never to see him again. And the journey to find another gas station that won't card you ensues.

Go for it dude, why not?
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02/08/2006 5:03 pm
the thing im afraid of that it might spoil our friendship.. she's really amazing...mature, capable of looking out for herself...what if things get much worst when i confess? that wud kill me more...i reckon the best thing to do is to confess just before i leave...lol... i know im a coward...always have been inthis kinda thing...i've always wanted somebody like her...but i was never able to find someone like that...at least not at my age...or maybe i'd need to get out more...sigh...i hopeshe's coming over again tomorrow...alcohol wud make it easier for me to confess i guess... sigh..dillemma.....
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02/08/2006 5:08 pm
Originally Posted by: jeffhxthe thing im afraid of that it might spoil our friendship.. she's really amazing...mature, capable of looking out for herself...what if things get much worst when i confess? that wud kill me more...i reckon the best thing to do is to confess just before i leave...lol... i know im a coward...always have been inthis kinda thing...i've always wanted somebody like her...but i was never able to find someone like that...at least not at my age...or maybe i'd need to get out more...sigh...i hopeshe's coming over again tomorrow...alcohol wud make it easier for me to confess i guess... sigh..dillemma.....

If she's as good of a friend as you speak of, then would she not deserve to know how you felt?
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02/08/2006 5:12 pm
Originally Posted by: Cryptic ExcretionsIf she's as good of a friend as you speak of, then would she not deserve to know how you felt?


yes she's a great friend..but before this i have never felt anything like this towards her before...but i guess time passed...and we all changed and grew up...now i look at her differently...sigh..i wish i didn't have to leave...im just really afraid that confessing wud spoil our friendship altogether...and that's worst...sigh...im really sad....**** like this always happen...and i always keep it in me...no guts to tell her how i feel...
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02/08/2006 5:14 pm
If you already cuddle her in bed, do you really think it would ruin your friendship to tell her that you "like" her? Besides, from the sounds of it you don't want a friendship anyway, all it would do is keep causing you pain. I say better to know for sure, one way or another.
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02/08/2006 5:21 pm
that's true.. but honestly i reckon she'll say no anyway...besides...imnot that kinda guy that is rich, tall, good looking...then again im not saying shes that kinda chick...but ya know...i really dunthink she'd accept...after all...im just a sad pathetic guitarist that sucks with no luck in this kinda stuff...being with her, id just have to be myself...im so freakin comfortable....geez...howi wish this feeling never occured...then again, im a sucker for chicks like this...and they dun come by easily...she's just so different...
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02/08/2006 5:22 pm
Originally Posted by: jeffhxhey guys...i have this huge thing for this girl whom i've know for ages.... never really affected me but during this trip, i realised that she's all i'm after...it's sad and depressing... have thought abt confessing but seriously...i'm pretty much convinced that she wud not feel the same...just agut feeling though...im leaving soon back to melbourne and it'll kill me...geez...this is kinda cheesy but heck... i reckon my case is less... 'decorated' than a typical love story... she stayed over for a couple of days and it was great... :(... help... hugging her while sleeping was awesome... she has a boyfriend whom she isn't really happy with... sigh...she's the type where it takes more than just cuddling each other to bed as a sign of attraction...sigh i really don't know wat to do... i wrote a poem abt her...tell me what u guys think...



what was that for?
why did you convulate things more?
why are you so fascinating?
what was it for?

self denial
it is impossible
it is simply trivial
but i'd show you why i'm capable

things are different now
time came knocking on the door
what was that for?
the barrier makes me need more

show me something
you're simply amazing
but i need more...
what was it for...

take me somewhere nice...
take me somewhere right
rose petals bloom
i do not dare to assume

for you are remarkable...
what are you thinking?
how are you feeling?
HE? is debatable..

incompetent..
insignificant...
are you just pious?
no...you're just oblivious...

it's not love...
it's not lust...
it's reality...
this is different..

what is this for?
soon i'd be gone
soon i'd be alone
so please give me more...

what would you do?
soon you'd be gone...
i might be wrong
i'd better sing this song..

what was that for?
please don't convulate things more
please be ridiculous
all hopes uncalled for...

What the hell does "convulate" mean?

PS, just ask her out. Even if she says no, thinking that would "ruin a friendship" is very naive.
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02/08/2006 5:25 pm
in this context, to make things more complicated
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02/08/2006 5:25 pm
Originally Posted by: jeffhxin this context, to make things more complicated

I meant that it's not an actual word.
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02/08/2006 5:29 pm
a word of expression
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02/08/2006 5:31 pm
Originally Posted by: jeffhxa word of expression

Well, for Lewis Carrol it's one thing, but I don't think you're making this an entire poem of fake words... I mean, it's like having a random chromatic note that sounds completely out of place in the song. Just put in a real word there, there are plenty of them.
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02/08/2006 5:34 pm
it's weird i know buti did come across it some time ago...if iremember, i bumped into it in psychology class...
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02/08/2006 5:35 pm
why not use just exacerbate? not nearly enough poetry has exacerbate in it.


/watched shaun of the dead lately
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02/08/2006 5:36 pm
Originally Posted by: jeffhxit's weird i know buti did come across it some time ago...if iremember, i bumped into it in psychology class...

Complicate, Convolute? Exacerbate?
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02/08/2006 5:45 pm
i guess you're right...i'll find the right time to tell her...man this is gonna be hard...it's crap really...even if she does feel the same...but we're so far apart...geez...i really think it's not easy to find someone like her...this might sound cheesy...but really...you'd have to know her to understand...geez i sound really cliche...and i hate it lol... but it cant be helped can it?
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02/08/2006 7:23 pm
Do I understand this right? You are saying you guys have slept in the same bed together, cuddling. But yet you won't tell her how you feel. If the chick is sleeping in your bed, chances are she's got the same feelings. C'mon Now.
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02/08/2006 7:27 pm
I've slept in a bed with two guys and had no feelings for them, but they were my two best friends at the time. I don't know, I don't go around cuddling with guys even when I didn't have a boyfriend. She's probably being flirtatious. I wouldn't tell her. I'd try to see if she did first my talking manipulatively. Thats how I roll. But really don't worry too much. It is just a girl.

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02/08/2006 8:36 pm
One time I slept in a bed completely by myself. I was all alone and I just happened to be in a bed.
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