the thing im afraid of that it might spoil our friendship.. she's really amazing...mature, capable of looking out for herself...what if things get much worst when i confess? that wud kill me more...i reckon the best thing to do is to confess just before i leave...lol... i know im a coward...always have been inthis kinda thing...i've always wanted somebody like her...but i was never able to find someone like that...at least not at my age...or maybe i'd need to get out more...sigh...i hopeshe's coming over again tomorrow...alcohol wud make it easier for me to confess i guess... sigh..dillemma.....