I've long felt that I am one breadcrumble short of a.....bunch of breadcrumbles. I'm always finding myself doing strange things, sometimes with no recollection of why or even when I started.

As for your intense hatred, maybe lay off the death metal. Yesterday my friend and I spent the day downloading death metal because we were unfamiliar with exactly what it is. Apparently it is insanity itself in power chord form. Try some music with decipherable lyrics. :)