hey, I'm alive, in case anyone was wondering. I too consider myslef extremely independent. This forum is the only place I open up. Perhaps I find it easier to just tell it all to people I've never met before. If you asked anyone that knew me personally, they would never be able to guess how I feel. I keep it bottled up inside.

Hammurabi was right, porn helps. :cool: and so did a good night's sleep last night. I'm feeling alot better today, though not quite 100%. I'm really dreading going to work today, in less then an hour and a half. I don't know if they're going to fire me or what. If they do, I suppose it's not the end of the world, perhaps my parents will even take sympathy on me, and give me a few weeks where I won't need to make car payments. I think not having to work for a while would be great in helping get the stress out. And then starting at a new job may be a kind of exciting, if I can find one that pays as well.

If I do see that same manager today, I think I will try and apologize, I'm not going to make my exuses, though they be many, she's the boss, I'm not, I shouldn't have said anything to her.

Thank you for all your encouraging words guys, they really do help more then you'd think. I must not have been in a right state of mind last night, I really don't want to commit suicide. I'm just fed up, and maybe a new job is just what I need.

My name is Nathan, and I'm 16 by the way, for those that keep asking.