I've been there myself. Then i realized something. Anyone who is successful can go back to a point in thier life where they had to struggle to keep up. They all had a point where it seemed like they couldn't go on. They fought through it and made something of themselves. I like the way things are going for me now. Someday you'll look back on this time and tell yourself "If it wasn't for all that hell back then, I wouldn't be the happy successful person I am today." Think about it.