Thank you for your responses. I appreciate it. And you are all right. There are bound to be lows as well as highs in life. Trouble is, I haven't seen any highs in a long, long time. I think I know what I have to do to try and pull myself out of this funk but it's really tough sledding. You know, I just don't have the energy or the interest in much of anything these days.

PRS, I too have been right to the edge and there are days when I think about it again. But I try to remind myself that nothing good would be accomplished by my demise by my own hand. It would only hurt a lot of people. My own birth father did that when I was about 18 months old and one of my closest friends did the same thing about twenty years ago. I know what that act does to the survivors.

So I wouldn't and quite frankly, I am (and many, many others) are glad that you didn't either.

Again, thank you. It's good to know that I've got people out there who actually care. That helps.