I had many feelings like you Aiwass.I thought for so long 'If theres a God and he lets this world suffer such horrors then I want no part in such a sick being'.After studying the scriptures I came to realize that Jesus never concerned himself with the physical...but instead spiritual and made it a point to show that his spiritual things are much more real than tangible,touchable matter.His apostles actually "followed him no more" becuase they simply could not grasp anything other than the tangible.They could not trust in Jesus that this life and the things of this world are just 'flashes in the pan'.

One man asked Christ "what must I do to be saved?",jesus said "leave/sell all that you have and follow me"...the man walked away sobbing...

Jesus meant much more meaning within this event.He was asking the man to disregard the tangible and trust/follow christ.The man walked away because he could not bear the thought of this life being insignificant to the one christ has prepared...All because he couldnt see or touch it.

The above in no way attempts to show that what Jesus says exists is there...it simply means to trust him.Yes,I mean faith...