Quit jacking off so much! When I first started, I wanted to play left handed because I am left handed. But my grandad told me to play right handed. It felt awkward at first but now it feels awkward to try to play left hand. I don't think it would be like starting over but it would take some major getting used to.
P.S. I just turned my ax around and tried to fret chords. Maybe you should try to work with it somemore.