I feel for you jasim. You are not alone by any means. Seeing all the amazing players on YouTube put me off for a while too, and still does to some extent but you should fight the feeling of doubt and stick at it. I was a late learner at 55 and as a way of trying to show a struggler making some progress I put a series on YouTube of my journey. I haven't added to it in some time but it stands as a record of where I was. Look for jim47ww.

Anyway I wish you all the best in your efforts.