Originally posted by blackrose
so I dont know whats normal.

I have spent a lot of time trying to understand what was crazy and what wasn't.

What you think is pretty weird. I have had my share of weird thoughts. But as long as they are fantasms and not acts, you aren't that crazy... You should know that people that are considered antisocial/mad/nutcases have the same thoughts as we all do, except they put them into acts (murdering someone, raping someone, etc.). You might say you don't have dreams of raping a girl through a wound you inflicted her, but your subconsious might have worst thought that come out of it in dreams... As long as you see those thoughts as undoable things, you are normal. If you think you will try and do them tomorrow, get some help, it's no big deal going to a shrink...