the act of playing music is pure joy for me. I play the music that honestly entertains and inspires me, thats the pay. There are only a small number of players in the lime light at one time, why should that dictate what anyone feels. Who cares, you don't have to be in the lights of corperations to be a brilliant musician and enjoy yourself, publish your own work, set up your own jams. Remember popular music is only a very small minority of all that there is. When I started to play what honestly was "me", without trying to be something else and enjoying the pure process of it all, things started to fall into place and people respected that. People respect honesty, even if it is a little ruff around the edges.