Like Tonja said, there's nothing that can really prepare you for the death of a parent. I lost my mother when I was 18. It was an extremely sudden and unexpected death. I'm out hunting one evening, and when I get back to my truck, I've got like 20 missed calls from people trying to get ahold of me... Next thing I know, we're hauling ass up to Memphis because my mother was having heart problems... get to Memphis, find out she has 99% blockage in one of her arteries, they decide to put a stint in to open it up, everything went fine, but then all of a sudden her body rejected the stint, went into cardiac arrest, and then died... just like that *snaps fingers*.

It was (and still is at times) very hard to deal with, being so sudden and all. I'm just glad that she didn't have to suffer long before the Lord took her home... and I'll leave it at that.

Just know that we're here for ya big guy, and that you're not alone in what you're going through.