"NO ONE can come to Christ unless the Father who sent Him draws him" (John 6:44)
The greek for "draw" means "drag".
so am I choosing or am I being chosen?So much for "free will".
As far as physical evidence,its futile to look for physical evidence of a spiritual being.Throughout the bible God says to pretty much take a look around for yourself and see his WORK of the cosmos(universe) to confirm his existence.
As for faith....death is too "big" for me...I can't do that alone..its a dark bottomless pit that all living things fall towards from birth...heres hoping that there is a net(God).
theres a verse that faith the size of mustard seed can move a mountain....bible or not,I find that infinitley inspiring.
If there is nothing beyond,then all the magnificence of our universe is a shallow spill.
I actually write all this in sorrow and repentance to some extent.Having sex with girls I don't "really love" has been weighing on my heat in the last few months.Not sure why.I get lonley and want affection.Ive been with 13-14 girls(i'm 21) and I consider it a dirty shame.
Am I a dirty person for this?My conscience beats me like an angry father.Very odd.My stomach literally hurts with shame and its sits like an albatross over my head.
Try once,fail twice...