can't imagine something like that either, I've lost both grandparents around my birthday, haven't celebrated my birthday anymore since then, but it doesn't matter, you aren't obliged to celebrate if you don't feel like celebrating, just be with the ones you love, holidays can't get any better then that

hopefully you had a wonderful Christmas magicninja, my thoughts go out to you guys who have suffered such a tremendous loss, I hope you can still enjoy these holidays

Regards,
Roel