I know a little pain and crying is better for me than holding it all in but still you know? I think about him constantly. Every few minutes. It's not always sad and most times I'll smile as I remember his sweet little face or his piercing lamb-like cry but once in a while the pain is too much and I have to just break down and sob. Thanks for being here guys. This thread will be revived from time to time. Mostly on the worst days I have. His birthday and other important dates. I suppose these few days were particularly difficult because of it being Father's Day and all.