Man???????????? Im heart broken for you and your family, But try to stay strong for your wife. She needs you now more than ever. I have never lost a child so I really dont know how you feel deep inside. But I do know it will surface at some point and it needs to get out. Just try to keep control of it.
My son Jackson was born 15weeks early and spent 6 months in the hospital he had brain bleeds and now a trach to breath but he is getting better and so will you. I hope you all soon find a peace because life must go on. Lots of love my Brother....