I've felt that same way countless times. But the thing is, if you kill yourself you'll never know what could have happened. At any time things can turn around for you. I don't know you, I've never met you, but I took the 15 minutes to read your post and respond to it. I care at least that much. Every body has problems at times. Sometimes it seems like too much to handle. But it never is. Stuff gets better.