I can't relate. When I write songs I enjoy listening to them. It's kind of a seal of approval for me. The more I want to hear it, the better job I think I did and if it even slightly reminds me of someone else's work, then I change it to something that'll make me feel better about it. But this is just me. Most people I know feel the same as you. Maybe I'm just weird or something.
The Gods Made Heavy Metal, And They Saw That It Was Good
They Said To Play It Louder Than Hell, We Promised That We Would
Whatever you do, don't eat limes. A friend of mine ate a lime once and BAM!! Two years later. Herpes.