first things are first, it's because of her that my parents dicided that I was a threat to my family, 'cause I was pretty suicidal at that point ( that was 2 years ago). and now they are doing the same thing currently. they don't talk to me about anything that's troubling me, they wait and then they strike.

and that teacher told me she has known this for 4 years now. she knew every thing about it, yet didn't asked me about it. And know she completely ignores me, doesn't take the time to answer my questions and I even think she is afraid of me. she is alway's leaving when I want to ask some things.

I know you guy's are right about not having her al, wel what ever I thought of her. But I see my end coming, if I talk to my dean about this ( wich I wil), she is gonna feel sorry for not telling me. Is it the right thing to do? To let everybody know you kick peoples butts if they ly or have a diffirent opinion on your problem? It's my life that's changing in to something I don't want.

I do keep an open mind that this must be hard for her to and everyone who saw something was wrong with me. I'm willing to tell everything but they must listen first. I just need some attention. And then I can forgive her, and forget this crap.

hmmzz... Suddenly my life turns in to a celeb-story. every good guitarplayer has a problem. now, I only need to be good or better in it :D