Find a GOOD doctor and talk with him/her as matter of factly...let them KNOW your having some problems.Stick with guitar and enjoy it...always know theres people with the same problems.

Thankyou for venting instead of keeping something like this stagnant within yourself. Dont ever feel ashamed because EVERYONE has this stuff in their life and your no less than anyone for actually trying to deal with it.

My WHOLE immediate family has mental issues...serious.

Sister-psychosis/schiz/paranoia
Brothers(2)-Severe depression/suicidal/manic/anxiety disorders
Me-Severe depression/anxiety and panic disorder
Parents(mother,father)-Depression/manic/social anxiety

yeah,we got dealt a bad hand...