im 20, im hispanic, i grew up speaking english and didn't have to deal with your spanish speaking problems but my family is just as ****ed if not worse than yours. long story short, my father shot my mother and she still lived (while i was a child in her hands!!!). now you want to put problems to problems, i dunno how many people could live with that in their head and be able to talk about it. ofcourse more things happened but for the sake of this entry, i'll forego them. but hey we all have problems, and no one can really put what degree each one of us go through. its all relative to you and only you, with your problems being the reference point. you don't need a councelor, you need to help yourself.

if you can't figure it out, then no one else will figure it out for you.