Originally Posted by: chucklivesoninmyheartHit me like a ton of bricks out of nowhere today.Its genetic,not circumstantial....everything is actually ok in my life...my body just lacks certain chemical qualitys(at least thats what science has shown thus far).

Actually...no,things are not good in my life.I barley leave the house,I'm a mess physically(to my mind anyway),I have ZERO friends,no g.e.d,live month to month on SSI.I'm a LOSER to put it simply...ive been a loser my whole life.I'll be 20 in april with NOTHING accomplished...absolutley nothing.

I'm also really tempted to pick smoking back up again...I coped much better with nicotine a year ago.

I just saw this thread...Hmmmmm...well, you are a loser, I will tell you that...
20, and acomplished nothing?Bah.I am 27, soon to be 28, and I already have two nice Ibanez guitars in my possesion (second of which I bought yesterday).Get what I mean?You are no looser by any view what so ever...I am much older than you and still have nothing...Plus; i drink like a fish, so...
If you wanna get some steam out, gym and a punching bag would be a great solution...As for the friends part; well, hmmm...I would think quite a few people here would get offended when you say that...I know quite a few guys helped me out here...Not just on the guitar part.So much for that...As for living from month to month, I live from weekend to weekend, cause most of my salary goes to this stuff called stambena štednja...it is the thing where you deposit some cash in a bank and then after some time you can get a credit for a house or something...So I am gettin by with money I make from gigs.Hehe.Another good reason to play guitar.And as for staying in most of the time...Well, that is pretty much a personal decision, ain"t it now?
Don"t worry man...it will clear up.We all feel f***** up from time to time,
but that is the way life goes.Accept this as a normal side of living...
And now go and get wasted!!Another good way to relax... ;)