All mine are depressing too. It's good finding a way to use bad experiences to make music. A couple of years ago my life was hell and all I ever did was play really fast in really horrific creepy scales. Now I'm happy to say I'd never have got as far as I have without the pains that made me so devoted to my art.
Have you written any music for it yet?
If I couldn't laugh at myself how could I laugh at someone less ridiculous?