Originally Posted by: NickFerra

It's tough trying to be a musician.

Yes, it is.

Your story is very similar to many other people trying to do the same thing. I've experienced all the things you mention & more. The only thing you can do is to decide if it's worth it. And if it is, then keep going. Try to find a way to make it work. Or, if you decide it's not worth it, then try something different that makes your life more pleasant.

It's extremely unlikely that everyone desiring to make a living playing original music is going to be successful. Or even everyone that want to play music (not even original) is going to make a full time living.

It does sound like you've had a hard time with band members. My suggestion there is to find more commited, professional people that are willing to follow through. But even then, there's no guarantee of anything.

If you are young it's easier to decide to hang in there & keep trying. Why not do it? After all you are only young once. But in the end if you aren't as successful at it as you might desire, it's not the end of the world. Keep trying to enjoy making music & move forward with your life.

Hope this helps!