I had to do it. But how could I expect them to understand? All they ever want is more answers and when the answers don't make sense they start with that suspicious attitude. The good cop bad cop method. It's times like that that I feel as though a pen firmly gripped in my hand and embedded in my leg to allow even the slightes pressure to vent might then make my life better. Though pens are not permitted. At least I'm not permitted to have them. They don't let me do much of anything here. They just ask me the same questions over and over. Why they bother is quite beyond me, my answers are always the same, but they never investigate my side of it. They'd just as soon sit and tell me I'm wrong with that false "I understand" look on their face. No, it's not real. They're not real. They scrutinize me on such a regular basis and they expect something new of me? Never again would they tell me of the borders of reality. I've seen what they cannot comprehend. And God, he hears my plea all the time, yet I am still here. Why I have not been granted what I've given others eludes me. Because of his creation and their "humane" morals. "He doesn't know what he's saying" they claim, but I assure you I am quite sane. I understood why I chose my actions. There was no other way. If I didn't make my move first then they would've taken me out. And these people that now stand before me, telling me that I am in the wrong? They are conspiring against me as well. They know I speak the truth. I've seen their signals. The one on the left coughs as a signal to the other implying "we need to take this guy out". Well, that certainly isn't going to happen. Not on my watch. I must remove them before they give me my jacket back. Before feeding time for they would have the easiest time poisening me. No. I can't rush into this. I need a plan. The others would know who to be looking for. I'd have to alter myself. So, take them out, slice off some skin, part of my nose, maybe a finger or two, and one less ear than before then I should be able to just walk right out the door.