now on to other questions. forgive me for my lack of punctuation for in my job it is in my interest that i type fast so i dispense with cap letters quite frequently.
unfortunately at the moment i can do nothing but play alone. alone is where i am the student, the observer, and the critic. isn't it wonderful how critical we can be of ourselves? and yet my g/f whom i love more than life its self says the music i play brings joy to her heart. oh i know that she says these things out of love but i cannot help but to give in to a smile or two. i have downloaded several metronomes for me to use. would that be a good thing to spend the next few months just doing nothing but following the 'nomes constant beeps and chirps? i want so badly to get better, but as i have said in my last thread, i seem to be at a standstill. and yet....it seems like every accomplishment i make is but a small one.
i leave you all with this: how can i overcome such feelings of despair. i do not want fame or fortune, i just want to play.