I sometimes socialize among people and I sometimes completely retreat to my cozy room, why? because I like my privacy and doing things my way and just enjoying being alone but I also enjoy the company of people that are completely different then me, offcourse it used to bother me a whole lot and sometimes made me sick to my stomach hearing the things some people say or how they act, but that's my problem, so I recently learned to simply accept that others are different and it's not my place to judge them, just don't pay attention to whatever they do if it's not what you would do yourself, simply accept it cause you're only troubleing yourself with it, I know being at peace in such frustrating circomstances is a very difficult, or maybe for some, impossible, thing to do, I know I still can't do it all the time, but do I have to? we can't always be a saint, we're simply being human.

and I also got some mental disorder jiujitsu, but I consider myself just being me, I don't like putting tags on people, because they got something with a name (allthough I also do it), they're just being them, different ain't bad, just different and you gotta learn to deal with it, or not

and btw, what does it matter if you do things that they also happen to do, if you like something just do it no matter what other think or do, I sometimes get pretty wasted, why? because I simply enjoyed the evening and had some weird mood to do crazy things! did it in any way influence my future or any other important aspect? no, I'm almost just as (in)sane drunk as I'm sober, I think that's a plus for me, but the important part is that you can do anything as long as you know what you're doing and accept and learn to live with the responsibilities coming with some things