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jeffhx
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jeffhx
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05/01/2006 7:18 am
fair enough..andrew has a good point...but also ud need to consider the average amt that i take..ok guilty..so maybe i found it alot tougher than i thought it would to completely just stop..but i am cutting down...whether or not its effective i dont really have a clue...but maybe this is just the way im handling it..hmm..makes me think...im still at the stage where when i start i can hardly stop..theres no such thing as a 'only one drink' thing for me...but now i am aware of my drinking and i keep it watched...when i start to feel a little effed up or any sign that shows a possibility to effing up, i'd stop...not that i have been testing this since i declared i have a drinking problem...cos its too short of a notice... but yeah i feel much better of a person..at least i dont go to school with a terrible hangover or still feeling high anymore..thats an achievement to me no matter how subtle it is...i wud definitely hope that things wud return like the days where i drink during social functions....but i dont think that will happen anytime soon...maybe ppl wud say that 'hey, try to do something else to get ur mind off it'...but for me its a really tough thing to do...its pretty much like smoking cigarettes...im addicted to it now and whenever i have nth to do..i smoke even more...i try to think of other stuff but really..even the process of thinking of doing other stuff makes me wanna smoke..lol...i guess im fortunate that i havent reached the point where i might be totally hooked on it and that i rely on alcohol to actually live...all i can probably say now is that im trying here... and so far there has been a tinge of improvement...that i am satisfied of...and i hope it wud progress even more...maybe slowly but gradually...i guess its just the reason that i have shifted from overseas to australia where alcohol is so damn cheap...so i drink more...smoking now is bad enough its costing me heaps...and i wud appreciate it if alcohol doesnt do the same to me...worst...the more i drink...the more id smoke...im pretty determined to stop drinking before it gets too late cos i reckon im that kinda person that wud get addicted to stuff like these really fast...thank god there'sno drugs arnd me all the time...i can only imagine if i was a junkie for all...id be sleepingby the streets and not be talking to u fabulous ppl right now...i feel grateful for all ur support really to be honest...as ive said before ive never felt so engaged and related to everyone in this forum...it tells me that ppl care...altho we've never met each other before..but it gives me that nudge saying 'hey, ure doing something wrong...work on it' feeling...it feels great... i agree with u acapella...maybe its because of that or its just the fact that i have nth better to do with my life..but i wudn agree with that..its just how some ppl see it..the way i see it... this is an amazing place to hangout and talk abt problems or just abt anything..we here have amazing guitarists...that are way better than i can imagine myself to be...i learnt heaps here...honestly...being in australia ive suffered cultural shocks, the differences...coming from an asian background and before this never had left the country...im really grateful..all i can say is.. thank you guys..thank you...:)
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