I've had my fair share of experiences, I'll confess. But I don't 100% blame others. A chunk of my poor school work stemmed from my hating to do school work. Of course a lot had to do with other students and bad teachers (which was a problem that solved itself when I switched to a vocational school), but I've never liked the idea of doing homework. I'm forced to go to school to do the work, and then they give me **** that I didn't ask to do to take home and to do on my spare time. School and home are two different places. I never got a check for my efforts there so I never saw the reason why I should be doing over time for them. Anyway, moving on. A lot of the abuse I got I also take the blame for. I was never one to stand up for myself and to be honest... I asked for it. Really. I was the geek in school that just screamed "make fun of me." I hated it, but every school has a handful of kids that just becon for it. It's not right, and it's shallow to pick on them, but they still exist. And I happened to be one of them. If I was anyone else, I'd probably have made fun of me too. For crap's sake, I would play with legos while listening to slipknot after I just finished jerking off to a victoria's secret catalog. C'mon. Does that not ask for abuse? So I don't really hold any negative thoughts on any of it. I could've probably handled the situations better, so I'll take it for what it is and move on.