heartbroken

[James]

Well this is open discussion, and since I've posted next to nothing about my personal life since I started here, I thought I'd give a little now.

I broke up with my girlfriend of 16 months tonight. Well... 9 months. Before that we were just good friends. It was a mutual decision that we made because there had been a lot of problems the past while. It hurts. I thought I'd tell you guys for two reasons, 1) As fellow guitarists I'm interested in hearing how the instrument helps you through tough times, and 2) well to be honest I don't have anyone I can tell about it right now and typing seems to help.

Thank god I have a passion for something that can provide some sort of relief from this bs. How do you guys feel the guitar helps you out emotionally?

Oh and btw... what do you think is the better type of music to play when you're sad- blues, or a dreary minor-based peice. I'm going with the minor-based...

[Psycho Amram]

i know how you feel man.
i once fell in love with a girl. she was both beutiful AND smart. we were both wild so we did some pretty wild things together for about a year. however, every time i tried to make her achnoledge me in public she refused. i remember lying on the grass with her one sunny day and a fried of mine came up and called me:"Yo Fox! why are you smiling like that?" and then he saw her and said:"O..." in knowing tone. man, she slapped him so hard she sent him rolling twice before falling on his face. :) anyway she left me and i was sad for a while but as they say there are many fish in the sea and i got over it.
my guitar did help me i used the minors because i don't like blues.

[stratman42]

Personally i opt for the blues. D minor. I dunno, it just helps ease the pain...

[SoS]

Personally i like to write my own song. It seams when i'm sad i can write a really good peice, a real meaningful peice.:(

[stratman42]

Yeh, when i write a piece when i'm sad the music sounds real good, but i can never seem to come up with any good original lyrics to fit...

[SoS]

I guess you gotta get a singer sad to find some lyrics to fit your peice, emotions really do bring out the meaning in your songs
When i'm hyped i write really metally tunes big riffs and thick solos
When i'm sad i write meaningfull tunes that just speak to you in that way you know..?
When i'm tired i just go to sleep....?
When I'm bored i kinda put together an unusual piece kinda punky blues style things
When i'm scared i'm make bad ass creepy tunes
yeah and so on and so on

[Lordathestrings]

If I write a blues piece while the mood is on me, it comes out sooo busted-up that no-one wants to hear it. I save the blues for later, when I've got some perspective. Remember, the blues is music you listen to to help you get over bad times.

When I'm actually up to my butt in the deep, dark, brown stuff, I write slow minor-key 'movie theme' stuff, and I put as much power into it as I can muster. I'm trying to compensate for something that made me feel small and unworthy, right?

[stratman42]

Yeh, i know what you mean. I don't actually write blues stuff when i'm depressed, i just mess about with it. Like you said, it helps you get over things. Actually, i dont write blues stuff at all. Just play the odd bit every now and then to get me through.

[Joseph]

Originally posted by James
Well this is open discussion, and since I've posted next to nothing about my personal life since I started here, I thought I'd give a little now.

I broke up with my girlfriend of 16 months tonight. Well... 9 months. Before that we were just good friends. It was a mutual decision that we made because there had been a lot of problems the past while. It hurts. I thought I'd tell you guys for two reasons, 1) As fellow guitarists I'm interested in hearing how the instrument helps you through tough times, and 2) well to be honest I don't have anyone I can tell about it right now and typing seems to help.

Thank god I have a passion for something that can provide some sort of relief from this bs. How do you guys feel the guitar helps you out emotionally?

Oh and btw... what do you think is the better type of music to play when you're sad- blues, or a dreary minor-based peice. I'm going with the minor-based...


I know how you feel James, and it's never easy. To say that we can all submerge ourselves in the guitar when something like this happens, well that's sugarcoating it if you ask me. However, the guitar does bring us much relief in times like this. Because it's great coordination, where we are workng both hands at the same time, and the only thing we are focusing on is finishing that composition, or nailing tha final part in a guitar solo.

Playing the guitar has always been a great form of therapy for me, but it doesn't solve all of our problems. The thing is, with relationships, if you don't understand why things ended between you and your woman, your future relationships will suffer as a result. You have to find a way to maintain a friendship with this girl to try and understand why things didn't work out, and so there will be no hard feelings on b0th sides.

James, anyone who ever said being in a good relationship was easy has obviously never been in a good relationship. The hardest thing after a break up is trying to stay close friends, but it's the only way to heal your soul. You have to stare this right down the barrell, and then you'll once again be able to feel confident with your music and towards the future.

Like I said, break ups are a bitch. But we all survive one way or another!

-Joseph

[Zeppelin]

unfortunatley we all know this feeling
in the last year i had a very big crash on a girl who is one of the most wanted and pretiest girl in the whole town
of course being me i didnt have any chance with her, especialy when she already had a boyfriend + 2000000 another guys waiting for them to break up so they'll be able to get here..
so i come home everyday from school deppresed as hell, and all ive done for few weeks is playing the guitar everytime i was sad. by the end i spent about 5-6 hours everyday with the guitar, i probably would be lost without playing the guitar in these days..
this is when i got the real passion for guitar playing
and i must say guitar is the best cure for any depression, even though its like drinking or taking drugs because its quite running away from problems

[Raskolnikov]

Well, this past July I broke up with a woman I'd been seeing for about four years. We'd allready had a couple of break ups, and spent six months apart while she was in China. We were both eachother's first for just about anything and everything, and to be honest, I couldn't put a finger on why exactly I broke up with her, I just knew I had to. In the months since I've learned that deep down, she never really understood me and that she needed me more than was really healthy. Our relationship crushed under the weight of my doubts and from her using me as a crutch.

Since then I've had some rough nights, spent a lot of time alone, but recently have found new hope. Now I'm about to make a disclosure that would make me feel like a total idiot if it weren't for the fact that I didn't care:
::clears throat::
I feel in love with someone I met online (remember my trip to DC a couple of months ago?).
Yes, you can kick my ass if you happen to run across me.

Anyway, this leads to all kinds of new frustrations; I'm not lonely, but damn it, I miss her and she lives about 800 miles away from me, so I can't just go see her. But we're lucky that our relationship had always been about talking and total honesty, so missing the act of holding her isn't as big a deal as it could be.
But damn, I miss seeing her smile... and the way she can make her mouth go diagonal when she's talking to someone on the phone and doesn't like the discussion, or when her computer is doing something bogus... And a million other things.
I think you all know the drill.

So here are my various methods of coping with assorted emotional trauma:

Bass (big suprise, huh?)
Writing music
I've been writing a lot of poetry/lyrics lately.
about once every month or so, I like to drink myself into a stupor and listen to every Morphine album end to end atleast once. This is the "Don't Try it at Home" part. Though any good Morphine album makes for great therapy.
I also listen to a lot of Tom Waits and Gin Blossoms when I'm really missing Tiana. ex: "Once this girl, she was mine/ For such a sort time/ We used to spend every night/ Now all I do is cry"


I reccomend all of the above but the alcohol. And to be honest, my drinking has slown down a lot since I got back from DC. I'd rather miss somebody than feel lonely I guess.

[Bardsley]

Stratman, images of This is SPinal Tap come back "This is in d minor, which I feel is the saddest of all keys" "It's called lick my luv pump", he he he.
By the way Rask, if you listen to Tom Waits, an appropriate song might be Shoreleave, from the album "Swordfishtrombones". It's about a guy a million miles away from his gal, very cool.

[blackrose]

what i like to play around with is dm, am, em, g/b, fm7.
Yup, playing guitar does relax and sooth a troubled mind. I have turned to my guitar for comfort a few times in the past couple years, but never for breaking up with a girl. I only turn to people/things for comfort when something happens that strikes my emotions like a glass bottle against the face. You know what I mean, stuff like when friends of yours die for various assorted reasons. (suicide is the worst :() Another sound I have been playing with lately is like:
e-3-3-3-3-
b-3-3-3-3-
g-2-0-0-0-
d-2-2-0-2-
a---2-2-3-
e---0-3-0-
along with a few other chords that I can never remember their names (who would name something am7sus4/g#m anyways?)

The point of this lesson in therapy is that there is no emotional stress that you can experience that will not make you stronger and a better person provided that you don't break...and if you do succumb to the trial then you can always make more beautiful music than you did before.

Just a word of encouragement from a once broken man.

[howie50]

I don't know about playing the guitar to make you feel better, I always say that ****ing her best friend helps, it does'nt solve anything or even make you feel better about things, it really annoys the **** out of her though!!!!! Be careful though guys, a friend of mine left his wife for one of her friends and left his beloved Rickenbacker at home...... you guessed it when he went to collect it, it nearly fit into a match box....... what an evil bitch!!!!

[PonyOne]

...ouch. Well I dunno, the whole doin-the-best-friend thing... nah.

Zepplin, it sounds like you're in one of those "Uptown Girl" by Billy Joel situations (ponyone braces for hail of bullets), and James, it sounds like you're in one of those "The Nurse Who Loved Me" by Failure (http://www.failure.org/odds/fp.html, about 3/4 the way down).

The worst breakup I had was with a girl who cheated on me like 30 times, dumped me and then decided that she wanted to be really liberal and leftist, then became a lesbian, then decided she was bi because that way she could be a TOTAL slut (i remember her saying to me "I don't really find girls attractive but it's just really cool").
Having dismissed it as her being a confused teen like myself, after the initial month of pain and depression, I didn't really give a flying fukk until all these rumors started going around our high school... i was decently popular, and word had gotten out that she was mean to me, so her popularity was waning; who wanted to be with a someone who was so malicious to someone who bent over backwards to make their life as good as possible?
Her way of countering it, was to start all these rumors as to how I was mean to her, hence her being mean to me. At first it was "he would seem really mad sometimes," then it was "he would yell and it was scary," then it was "he'd yell at me and call me things," then it was "he'd hit me" and then it was, finally, "he raped me."
Our mutual friends were like "What?!?!" because anyone who knows me knows how hard it is for a girl to seduce me and that I'm reluctant to stick it because I don't want to end up a dad at 18, also that I'm a fairly non-violent person. I've broken up fights between couples on the street, and once got into a fistfight with a guy for slappin his girl (FAIRLY non-violent).
Well long story short, I don't think that I can emphasize how hard it is when your school of 2500 kids stops thinking of you as "kickass artist" and start thinking of you as "RAPIST," especially in Cambridge, MA, the most conservatively left city in the US. You walk down the stairway and someone tries to dump mat books on your head, people shriek at you in the halls, your ultra-fem teacher gives you an F, and people start telling your new girlfriend how "it's okay, we're here to help you, you don't have to put up with him." She ended up getting suspended for catfighting my ex for lying about me.

At some point I got so sick of the insults (adding to it was the fact that I wore a trench coat since i was 13, but when the Columbine incident happened, people were all the more willing to believe the lies, including the school admin.) and stares, and I didn't much like school anyway, so I dropped out and took a job; this is when guitar started becoming a major fixture in my life.

Being able to sit down w/my SG and Vox and start plugging away, letting my soul control my fingers rather than my head, figuring out how I could twist knobs and screws and combine it with my synth to create audio representations of my feelings was something that kept me from dying more than once. Even if you don't like Epiphone instruments, I think we can all relate to the motto on the splash page: "I can't tell you, but I can play it for you."

Eventually the girl ended up using a lot more people and her words had less sting than they did, I also had a few people who could sympathize with me.

When she flirted with the wrong guy at a party and he followed her home and then tried to rape her in an alleyway (lucky for her there was a guy like me who walked by at the right time), she finally seemed to understnad how much it hurts to be accused of commiting one of the most terrible acts on another human being you could and she tried to renege the lies. But the damage was done, and Cambridge hates me only slightly less than I hate it. In this city, every woman is a victim of rape, even if she's a virgin. In this city every man is a predator, regardless of whether or not he wants sex. And in this city, ignorance breeds just as it does in the trailerparks down south. To the minds of most people here, she's lying now, and that's why she isn't trusted anymore.

She wants to be my firend now and try to patch things up. I've got a new girlfriend, a new art, a new life, and she doesn't fit in, and I don't want her to. I want her to feel the pain that she inflicted on me bu I'm too far beyond the situation now to care enough to do it, nor will I bend to her ways, and that's what's most important.

Okay, I've vented.

Good luck, bro.

[stratman42]

yeh, i knew id heard it somewhere before

[educatedfilm]

wasn't it in Eminor? I disticntly remember him saying something like "it's Eminor, it makes poeple just wanna weep"... anyway that wasn't the point of this post...

I totally feel for ya ponyone (which i really shoulnd't do, cos i dont really know ya, or even if what you say is tru, but still it resonates something with me)... forgive me for being a liberal who holds onto his steroetype, but I mean, the impression we get is that, like in your situation in the US someone would have pulled a gun, am I right in thinking this? .. I'm glad you've met someone else, but I feel so bad that you had to drop out of school just because of the poeple there... I mean if you planed on doing so before, fine... Anyway, I'm out of school now, and in my year of limbo between school and uni (I hope)... If was in your shoes(which I'm glad I wasn't) I would have been totally lost... I mean, I'm coloured, and I dont think that would have helped in the town your describing ... Sorry this really really pisses me off... Yeah, rape is something extremely serious, but you got no defense against a false acusation, especailly "attemped rape", anyway, why am I talking about this...
Good luck man!

[Edited by educatedfilm on 12-17-2001 at 05:18 PM]

[Raskolnikov]

Pony: that sounds like something that happend to a good friend of mine... only a bit more out there. You delt with it better too. He ended up spending a long while drunk, then hooked up with a chick who has three kids by three different fathers who's been living as much as possible off of welfare for many years now, then sired the fourth child... All who know his new woman are giving six months to a year before she leaves him for some other guy and lets him pay some more of her bills. Just like her last few guys.
I swear, his heart is a lot bigger than his brain.

So what I was initially thinking was you should find the song "Lyin' Ass Bitch" by Fishbone, but your situation is WAY beyond that. It's good to hear you're moving on though.

Bardsley: Well, my "old" Tom Waits tunes were "Better off Without a Wife," "Nighthawk Postcards From Easy Street," and "Warm Beer and Cold Women." My "new" one is "Nobody" (though I think it may be a cover). I really have to say that Nighthawks at the Diner is a kick ass album.

[Tobius]

Chin chin james.. a double whisky for you. the guitar has many faces, more than me... my guitar has tried to cut my throat before.. the black lead on a wardrobe handle... very scary...

Memories of trauma added to the gutted feeling of losing a bed partner... has spurned more life in me than ever... a bit of poison now and again keeps the jib cut fresh...

Now I'm sailing thru with 4 girls, one for sex. one for chatting... one to be miserable with and the other is a potential...

I aint getting bogged down with any emotional goings on with the females for a while... 22 is too young to bother trying. I hate failing.. perfection is...

You get the idea...? keep the XX types in check and the mental tigers at bay.

[blackrose]

Its impossible to get involved with a girl wihtout getting emotionally involved unless you have no relationship with her whatsoever, and in that case you have to be with a really stupid girl for her not to see through your selfish motivations. Girls are not objects to be sorted and used as you just described. Trust me, grow up a bit and life will be much happier.

[Azrael]

umm.. i like playin around wif chords like...

e___0_0_1______________
B_______3_3____________
G_2_3_2_2_3_5_3_2_0_0_2
D_3_5_5_0_3___5_3_____3
A_5_5_4___1_____0_4_5_5
E_____________3________


And why? ... i dunno! *LOL*

:)

-=[Azrael]=-

[Benoit]

I used to play a lot in highschool to get my mind of jackasses who made fun of me. Never was a strong believer in fistfight so i took my anger and sadness to my guitar.

It always was a relief and sometimes I did shed a tear while playing. I never stopped playing since. Bad and good days alike.

What I suggest is play your guitar. If you come up with something that you like, record it. Play it to yourself while writting down words that come up to you when you think about your situation. With these words, start building lyrics. Don't think about rimes, just write them down.

When you feel good about your lyrics, sing them. Even if you don't think you have a great voice. It's your music with your lyrics, they're yours to play and sing.

Sing them with all your heart, let the pain go...

You'll see how good you'll feel after. That's music for your soul :)

[blackrose]

Probably the reason why so many of you (and me) turn/have turned to playing guitar to express emotions is that music is the most individual thing on earth, even more so than peoples personalities or philosophical views. When people have strong emotions that they just need to get out they usually turn first to what they feel expresses themselves the best.

just a little theory of mine.

[PonyOne]

Ed: In what stuation would the gun-pulling be?

[Edited by PonyOne on 12-20-2001 at 01:05 PM]

[Christoph]

Ed: I know this is hard to believe, but America isn't like the movies. People don't run around with machine guns shooting everything up, and cops usually don't shoot people at the drop of a hat.

In spite of what you've heard, guns are used most often in self defense.

[educatedfilm]

yeah... I just really wanted to hear that from americans, not a rich brit who'd gone over on concorde, and stayed in a 5 star hotel... It's just ridiculous figures like 20,000 poeple die from gun violence a year... The other thing that added to it were the kids that came over to our school (when I used to go to school), and they've all got guns! They did their gun safty test when they were in the 6th grade! They were abotu 17, 18 and were shocked that most poeople had been drinking scince 14, but they didn't get how alien guns are to us... I mean the only poeple who have them are farmers, and they have shot guns, and it takes months to get a licence...
Sorry I shouldn't really take heed of steroetypes (I dont to any other culture, well except to other brits, but nothing serious.. maybe It's cos I see as americans as our wierd cousins)...
Ponyone: um... Well any of the girl's male... no why be sexist, any of her relatives could have pulled a gun on ya... we hear stories of how kids bring guns to school ( but dont actauly use them)... Overhere, some one gives me verbal, I dont care, they get physical I get physical, and this puts people off, noone wants a black eye, or teeth missing... Now having some with a gun around harrasing poeple, that's a nightmare. I'm a very calm person, but I wont take being smacked like an animal, so where does that lead the sitaution? .. do you see where I'm comming from.... Still, I'm sure our bone idle press who likes to make a mountain out of a mole hill (cos it certainly fills the pages/ minutes quicker and easier than proper journalism) has done it again...

[Raskolnikov]

Originally posted by Christoph
In spite of what you've heard, guns are used most often in self defense.

Around here they're mostly used for target shooting and hunting (and unfortunately, poaching).

It's not uncommon to see cars and trucks left running here in the winter months while the person who parked it pays for their gas and/or shops.

Now there's small town America for you.

[educatedfilm]

I thought you were canadain? (I mean, your thin! Clearly not american... You've got a lacross stick, doesnt get more french candain that!... Smile poeple it's just a joke!:)... your band were wrapped up in a candain flag in one of the photos, I think it was who of the month... and I thought your site mentioned your original band memebers going off to join the canadain air force ... I may be confusing you with some else here)....

[Raskolnikov]

Nope, flag was a joke, and it was the USAF (actually, two of my friends/former "bandmates" (like they actually did much of anything) are in the "Chair Force" as one of them calls it. Oddly, he's the one now deployed to some unknown location I guess is either somewhere in Pakistan or Tajikistan.

Not that Vermont is very far from Canada, I can be in Montreal or Quebec City just as quickly as I can be in NYC or Boston.

[PonyOne]

Okay, here I go, backing up stereotypes... I got my first gun, a Marlin .22 single shot "varmint gun" (low-velocity, slow-loading rifle) when I was ten. I think I went out to fire it once or twice.

Nah, see, her family knew me fairly well and if she would have said that I raped her they would have been like "uh, no..." And, as has been noted, surprisingly, there are parts of America where there are fewer guns than Bin Laden's per square mile, Cambridge being one of those cities.

Out on the western part of the US, there are more guns, and I'm from the West Coast. It's not like the world media portrays it, okay, the world media is a bunch of blithering idiots. You've got Al Jazeera saying it was the JEWS that are behind everything wrong in the world, the British tabloids who are always pertaining everything to Prince William, the Japanese media which is basically just a laughing stock of bad cartoons, and the American media, which is a bunch of "aw, let's hug" crap.
When I was in England, there was a BBC-made show about a small town in New Mexico on that I was watching with a group of Scottish rugby players, and dear God! All the show was was crap like "I'm a hard drivun trucker, so you best be watchin' out!" followed by gunfire and then a bunch of people at a bar like "yup." It's about as American as a guy with a tweed jacket with a magnifying glass going up to a nurse and looking at her as she's bending over and saying "BUTTOCKS" is British.

If you come over here and stay in a large city everyone's going to basically take the "big deal" attitude toward you; out in a smaller city or town, you'd get people asking you what it was like in the UK, if it rains a ton, if you've met the Queen, etc.

It's funny how so much of the world likes to make fun of the US for being the nation who created such devices as the microwave, power windows, the remote control and other implements of simplicity and call us lazy, close-minded and tear into us about being prejuduced... but every car out of Europe and Japan has those powwer options, everyone loves the microwave, all TV's are shipped with remotes, and look at how everyone in the world knows so much about the US and how we're a bunch of inbred, bloodthirsty animals, even though they've never been here, and only know us through our TV shows (and most of the American TV shows on the air abroad are just jokes here).

But I personally would rather live in the UK than here, I enjoyed it immensely.

[educatedfilm]

I lived in scotland for a few years, and the poeple way up north are really nice... the problem is, you dont really relize how depressing it is to such dull weather... hmmm... I think our steroe type of americans not being very sharp (which isnt true after having talked to poeple here), is becuase of your tv, it works on the principal of more vewiers the better, so alot of the intelligent gags and parts are taken out, and dumed down.. except for the old simpsons and futurerama, which I find quite funny...The harry potter film, over there they changed it from philosipher's to sourcerer's stone.... I mean that's pretty insulting, I mean why dont they just go the whole way cahnge the name to BURGER, or Fries, or Milkshake... lol...
(oh by the way, I watch aljazeera in arabic, and it's not anti-semetic, It's very honest, it get alot of bad press becuase everyone has their own adjenda and the truth tends to get in the way, I mean there are a lot of BS translations about, and I'm pretty sure it's delibrate... there are some that are though)...

[Christoph]

ED: I completely agree with you about popular American TV. I avoid it like the plague. All those so-called sitcoms and comedies (I use that word very loosely because most shows aren't in the least bit funny to an intelligent audience) are so inane and far from everyday reality that they're insulting. They broadcast to the world the message that all Americans are basically uncooth morons.

. . . not the message we necessarily want to be sending.

[blackrose]

Just a point of interest- all military weapons designed for use by an individual are sold to the general public. That means that a psycopath with $ can get a 50 caliber sniper rifle with a 3 mile range any time he wants.

[educatedfilm]

that's the kind of thing i'm talkin about... over here, the worst thing you could get legally is a croos bow.... but, really, I like americans... they do have their bad habits, but they're sooo much more positive (sometimes in a lovely naive way), and they dont talk down to you, and their multicultural society goes un-noticed... It's hard to explain... I'm orignally an arab, so I'm coloured... over here I'm aware of that, I dont get any shtik, but I'm aware (oh dont get me wrong, poeple here are great, and I've made great freinds)... in the US, it's nothing (well, in most places... I'm not talking about them there weird southern places)... So it does have it's major good points ... Plus everything is soooo much cheaper over there, I mean pedals that would cst $140 (£100) would start at £140!... any way, better go and something constructive....

[PonyOne]

I noticed that too when I was over there, that basically everyone switches around the dollar symbol with the pound symbol and leaves the numbers the same. So if you go to a McDonald's in Stratford and get a #4, it'll cost you 4.95 pounds, and in the US it'd be $4.95... not fair, as that adds to about like $8.50... and it's a nasty-ass McDonald's burger no matter where it's made.

The one thing I didn't like about the UK were freakin' tourists... okay, so I was one two, but I was a tourist at street level, I wasn't like all those French and Russian people who seemed to be everywhere who tried to haggle down the cost of a Cadbury bar ("in America, you know, I could get this for..., this is facist, I will not buy this unless you lower it from 50p to 45p").

I thought it was funny how when I went to the Safeway in Stratford (imagine, a Safeway in Stratford, England, but not in Boston, MA) and saw prodicts called stuff like "American Fast Food Diner" brand frozen dinners, every candy bar had a little hing on it that said "AMERICA'S #1 FAVOURITE!" and the "Where's Waldo?" Spaghetti-o's were "Where's Waldorf?" There were these really good chips I got called Royster's, and on the back of the bag there was this long thing bout how they've been a hugely popular part of American food culture since the 50's, and I haven't seen them before or since. God damn it, now I'm getting all sentimental...

[Incidents Happen]

Originally posted by PonyOne
I noticed that too when I was over there, that basically everyone switches around the dollar symbol with the pound symbol and leaves the numbers the same. So if you go to a McDonald's in Stratford and get a #4, it'll cost you 4.95 pounds, and in the US it'd be $4.95... not fair, as that adds to about like $8.50... and it's a nasty-ass McDonald's burger no matter where it's made.


if your getting charged $4.95 for a #4, then your gettin ripped off man. I work at a Mcdonalds, and a number 4 there (double quarter pounder with cheese) is $4.15.

[atc323]

ive been sort of depressed about things lately. i wrote sort of an escape song, and it really helps. i posted part of it under alternative.. i didnt really know what category it belongs under. nothing brings out the meaningful music more than strong emotions whatever they may be.

[Lordathestrings]

Which is why I tend to avoid playing thrash-metal kind of stuff. I really don't need to be in a space where that mirrors my mood. And people don't want to be anywhere around me then, either.

[PonyOne]

I've been playing a lot of bluesy chops mixed w/hard rock-ish chords on my 12 string lately... helps to wash away the pain of living in New England for another 5 months.

[Incidents Happen]

Originally posted by Lordathestrings
Which is why I tend to avoid playing thrash-metal kind of stuff. I really don't need to be in a space where that mirrors my mood. And people don't want to be anywhere around me then, either.

EXACTLY my thoughts.